Last week at small groups my small group talked a little about our prayer lives. We all mentioned that we were struggling a little in being consistent. Someone even said their prayer was like a vending machine, she "went to it when she needed something." This really hit home for me. I struggle a lot with being consistent. And when I do pray, my mind is all over the place. I just can't stay focused for very long. I had made a vow last Sunday to spend quality time praying this week as often as I could. I regret to say that Monday was the only day that I did okay. I stopped several times throughout the day and had a conversation with God.
As many of you know. Monday was a bad day for me. Awful. And I didn't understand why on the day that I'm trying to focus on him, he decides to put me through so much stuff. So, I, being the grudge helder I am, held out on him all week. And, he, being the lesson teacher he is, taught me a lesson. While I refused to reach out to him, he wasn't the most protecting of my feelings and emotions.
But then, last night. I was at my end. All of me was exhausted. I felt like I couldn't go one more day. So, I turned to Him. And, last night, things got better. I have returned stregnth. Even though I'm exhausted. I have more optimism, even though this week has been nothing but bad. I feel better. Turned around. Like I can finish this year.
I want to focus this summer on improving my prayer life. I'll have more time, and absolutely no excuse. If I get it in order this summer, I will be strong enough to keep it up throughout the school year.
Lord, Please help me with my prayer.
-Kristina
1 comment:
Girl...I will pray for you..you pray for me...I pray throughout the day, but it's hard for me to sit for awhile and just pray. I can relate to the vending machine also. Sad huh?
YOu hang in there and let's plan that night at my house! Summer is coming sooooonnn!!
LOVE YOU!
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