It's so crazy how many first days of schools you have throughout college. It almost makes me miss high school and only having to be nervous once a year, instead of 3 or 4 times a semester. Oh well. It'll be done before too long.
I only have one class on MWF. It's called Standards Based Chemistry and we don't even have a book for the class. That's kinda exciting I suppose. Except it means that I have to be at class instead of just reading the book at home haha. The worst part is the time. 8 am. Blah. It's amazing to me how much time I had to do things after class. I took a nap and went to the store and got stuff ready for my event tonight. It was crazy. I'm so not used to having this much time in a day.
Tonight I have my first neighbor night of this semester. It's a coloring contest and I'm hoping that at least one person will come. That will make my trip to Target worth it at least.
I don't have a lot today. I'll have more tomorrow I'm sure after I have 4 new classes. Eek.
-Kristina
Monday, January 11, 2010
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
one more resolution
It's crazy to me that you can be such goods friends with someone for so long and then suddenly it's like you were never friends. It almost feels like it's an overnight thing. I've really struggled my whole life to have close girl friends. There have only been one or two that I have seriously felt like I could come to with anything. Throughout most of high school, my closest friends were guy friends. I felt like they caused so much less drama, and, I was such a tomboy that I felt like I fit in a lot better with them. I was so blessed to have some amazing guys as friends. And somehow, my boyfriends throughout high school tended to not be bothered by the fact that I spent most of my time with other guys. When I was a senior, that changed. Partly because as you get older, relationships tend to become more and more serious. But, as a senior, I was dumped by a boy because he didn't think I should care so much about my best friend, who was a boy, who was going through a rough patch in his life.
At the time I was angry. He'd understood for so long and then suddenly he didn't like me being friends with him anymore. I blew it off as jealousy. And I believed it was jealousy and him being ridiculous until I got out of high school. Well, to be honest, until recently. Throughout my senior year, and the summer after, I continued being friends with all the boys, and very few girls. I didn't really see anything wrong with it. I wasn't doing anything wrong and at least I had friends.
As I went into a relationship with Lucas I struggled to maintain my friendships but also be in a committed relationship. It was very hard for me to not see it as jealousy on his part. And, to be fair, it probably was a tad bit of jealousy. But now, finally, I'm realizing that it really isn't okay anymore. A teenage girl in high school can run around with guys all she wants. But I think that after high school, she should start finding some friends of her own sex. It doesn't look good to anyone if someone spends their free time with someone other than their boyfriend.
I'm writing this mostly because I need prayer, but also because I needed to understand my own feelings. I finally understand the huge desire and need I have in my life for good Christian female friends. I've gone through the last couple of years blowing people off, pushing friends away, and just not doing great at seeking people out. I think deep down it was me being selfish, if I couldn't have guy friends, I wasn't going to have any friends. I didn't want to deal with the drama of girls. So, in short, I've had basically zero friends. I've stupidly thought that I could do it on my own. I thought I had Lucas and that'd be enough. But let's face it, there are some things that girls need to discuss amongst themselves, sans boyfriend.
So the prayer I need: please pray for me to find some amazing Christian female friends. I need that now. So, New Year's Resolution number 4: Start searching for friends instead of expecting them to come to me.
-Kristina
At the time I was angry. He'd understood for so long and then suddenly he didn't like me being friends with him anymore. I blew it off as jealousy. And I believed it was jealousy and him being ridiculous until I got out of high school. Well, to be honest, until recently. Throughout my senior year, and the summer after, I continued being friends with all the boys, and very few girls. I didn't really see anything wrong with it. I wasn't doing anything wrong and at least I had friends.
As I went into a relationship with Lucas I struggled to maintain my friendships but also be in a committed relationship. It was very hard for me to not see it as jealousy on his part. And, to be fair, it probably was a tad bit of jealousy. But now, finally, I'm realizing that it really isn't okay anymore. A teenage girl in high school can run around with guys all she wants. But I think that after high school, she should start finding some friends of her own sex. It doesn't look good to anyone if someone spends their free time with someone other than their boyfriend.
I'm writing this mostly because I need prayer, but also because I needed to understand my own feelings. I finally understand the huge desire and need I have in my life for good Christian female friends. I've gone through the last couple of years blowing people off, pushing friends away, and just not doing great at seeking people out. I think deep down it was me being selfish, if I couldn't have guy friends, I wasn't going to have any friends. I didn't want to deal with the drama of girls. So, in short, I've had basically zero friends. I've stupidly thought that I could do it on my own. I thought I had Lucas and that'd be enough. But let's face it, there are some things that girls need to discuss amongst themselves, sans boyfriend.
So the prayer I need: please pray for me to find some amazing Christian female friends. I need that now. So, New Year's Resolution number 4: Start searching for friends instead of expecting them to come to me.
-Kristina
Saturday, January 2, 2010
Wonderful Day
I had such a good day today that I wanted to write about it.
First, I got to sleep in. This is always wonderful. But, usually I'm not very good at it. I usually wake up fairly early and then just lay in bed for a few minutes before deciding that I have better things to do with my life. But this morning, I actually slept until 10. It was wonderful.
Second, I went to the bank. I deposited about 100 more dollars than I thought that I had in my wallet. haha. So that was beautiful.
Third, I went to work. Today was my first day as a cashier and I feel like I learned everything very quickly. I hardly had any questions and I was getting pretty comfortable by the end of my shift.
Fourth, I had my weekly date night with Lucas. First we went to Compadres. Which is always yummy. And then we went to the movie theatre. Halfway between Compadres and the movie theatre the car died. In the middle of the road might I add. I think today was the first time me and Lucas have really worked together in a situation like that and stayed calm and patient as we figured out what to do. It was good. Then we saw "Did You Hear About the Morgans." It was a pretty good movie and I think it had some pretty good life lessons in it: Expect everything and ignore all the b.s.
Fifth, Lucas came back to my house and we just sad together and talked for an hour. It was nice. And perfect. I love him.
Woo. I'm tired now. But it was just such an amazing day I wanted to tell about it.
-Kristina
First, I got to sleep in. This is always wonderful. But, usually I'm not very good at it. I usually wake up fairly early and then just lay in bed for a few minutes before deciding that I have better things to do with my life. But this morning, I actually slept until 10. It was wonderful.
Second, I went to the bank. I deposited about 100 more dollars than I thought that I had in my wallet. haha. So that was beautiful.
Third, I went to work. Today was my first day as a cashier and I feel like I learned everything very quickly. I hardly had any questions and I was getting pretty comfortable by the end of my shift.
Fourth, I had my weekly date night with Lucas. First we went to Compadres. Which is always yummy. And then we went to the movie theatre. Halfway between Compadres and the movie theatre the car died. In the middle of the road might I add. I think today was the first time me and Lucas have really worked together in a situation like that and stayed calm and patient as we figured out what to do. It was good. Then we saw "Did You Hear About the Morgans." It was a pretty good movie and I think it had some pretty good life lessons in it: Expect everything and ignore all the b.s.
Fifth, Lucas came back to my house and we just sad together and talked for an hour. It was nice. And perfect. I love him.
Woo. I'm tired now. But it was just such an amazing day I wanted to tell about it.
-Kristina
Friday, January 1, 2010
Goodbye '09, Hello '10
Goodbye 2009!
Wow. What a year it has been. It's time for a review of my year. Followed by my resolutions for the next.
There were some pretty big life changing events this past year but I don't think others will see them as important. We'll see haha.
January: I decorated my first cake. Doing this showed me that maybe I could take that path with my life. I really enjoy doing it I just don't have time to fully devote myself to learning right now.
February: I had my second Valentine's day with my boyfriend, Lucas. I've never had two Valentine's days with anyone. It was beautiful. And I'm so glad I will get to spend the rest of my Valentine's days with him.
March: Around this time I began doing martial arts. I really really enjoy it and eventually when I have more time I will go back to it. I think it's an awesome way to stay in shape and learn self defense.
April: I made my first cake that I got paid for. It was for my grandparents 50th wedding anniversary. Also in this month I got the yellow stripe added to by white belt. =) That's as far as I got though =( The cake picture is crooked. But that's cause the topper wasn't pushed in all the way. So chill haha.
May: I finished my second year of college this month. This was a huge accomplishment because it meant that I was half done. Of course, since then I've had to add a semester. But that's okay. Also in the Spring '09 semester I had a 3.7 gpa. =) No pictures for this one.
June: I struggled through this month in my relationship with Lucas because we both knew I'd be leaving for six weeks in the middle of the month. However, while this strained our relationship, I think ultimately it helped it.
July: Throughout all of July I was in France. I have too many pictures to choose just one. But it was a good experience and it helped me decide that I don't really want to pursue French as a degree. So, I don't think it was a waste of time like everyone else does.
August: Again, no picture. This month was a rough month. Full of ups and downs. Me and Lucas went and saw Wicked. Which was incredible. But then we broke up. I think this break up was hard on both of us for different reasons but we eventually worked everything out. And I can honestly say that our relationship is so much better than it was before.
September: I got my second tattoo. I love it and I still love it. Which, it's always good if you continue loving something that is permanently on your body haha.
October: Shanna had her second baby, my nephew, Jamison Christopher. This baby was truly a blessing to the Watts family. They went through a lot to have him and it made me truly appreciate life a little more.
November: I had to spend a week away from Lucas while he was in Cozumel. Being apart always makes me realize just how much I want to marry him.
December: This past month has been busy. I really am over halfway done with school now. I only have 4 semesters left and I'm so excited to get on with school this next semester.
Hello 2010!
I have a few resolutions that I'm making this year. They are kinda more like goals, but that's okay.
1. I want to run a 5k. I know that's short, and I should already be able to do it. But I'm incredibly out of shape. So it's going to take a bit of work.
2. I want to run a 10k. I really think I can get the 5k done pretty quickly and then I'll start getting ready for the 10.
3. I'm going to work on patience. It's something I've always struggled with but I really would like to be better at it.
I think that's all. I am welcoming this new year graciously. I'm ready for a new start so to speak and a clean slate to work on. So, with that being said, Goodbye 2009, Hello 2010.
-Kristina
Wow. What a year it has been. It's time for a review of my year. Followed by my resolutions for the next.
There were some pretty big life changing events this past year but I don't think others will see them as important. We'll see haha.
January: I decorated my first cake. Doing this showed me that maybe I could take that path with my life. I really enjoy doing it I just don't have time to fully devote myself to learning right now.
February: I had my second Valentine's day with my boyfriend, Lucas. I've never had two Valentine's days with anyone. It was beautiful. And I'm so glad I will get to spend the rest of my Valentine's days with him.
March: Around this time I began doing martial arts. I really really enjoy it and eventually when I have more time I will go back to it. I think it's an awesome way to stay in shape and learn self defense.
April: I made my first cake that I got paid for. It was for my grandparents 50th wedding anniversary. Also in this month I got the yellow stripe added to by white belt. =) That's as far as I got though =( The cake picture is crooked. But that's cause the topper wasn't pushed in all the way. So chill haha.
May: I finished my second year of college this month. This was a huge accomplishment because it meant that I was half done. Of course, since then I've had to add a semester. But that's okay. Also in the Spring '09 semester I had a 3.7 gpa. =) No pictures for this one.
June: I struggled through this month in my relationship with Lucas because we both knew I'd be leaving for six weeks in the middle of the month. However, while this strained our relationship, I think ultimately it helped it.
July: Throughout all of July I was in France. I have too many pictures to choose just one. But it was a good experience and it helped me decide that I don't really want to pursue French as a degree. So, I don't think it was a waste of time like everyone else does.
August: Again, no picture. This month was a rough month. Full of ups and downs. Me and Lucas went and saw Wicked. Which was incredible. But then we broke up. I think this break up was hard on both of us for different reasons but we eventually worked everything out. And I can honestly say that our relationship is so much better than it was before.
September: I got my second tattoo. I love it and I still love it. Which, it's always good if you continue loving something that is permanently on your body haha.
October: Shanna had her second baby, my nephew, Jamison Christopher. This baby was truly a blessing to the Watts family. They went through a lot to have him and it made me truly appreciate life a little more.
November: I had to spend a week away from Lucas while he was in Cozumel. Being apart always makes me realize just how much I want to marry him.
December: This past month has been busy. I really am over halfway done with school now. I only have 4 semesters left and I'm so excited to get on with school this next semester.
Hello 2010!
I have a few resolutions that I'm making this year. They are kinda more like goals, but that's okay.
1. I want to run a 5k. I know that's short, and I should already be able to do it. But I'm incredibly out of shape. So it's going to take a bit of work.
2. I want to run a 10k. I really think I can get the 5k done pretty quickly and then I'll start getting ready for the 10.
3. I'm going to work on patience. It's something I've always struggled with but I really would like to be better at it.
I think that's all. I am welcoming this new year graciously. I'm ready for a new start so to speak and a clean slate to work on. So, with that being said, Goodbye 2009, Hello 2010.
-Kristina
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